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anon / June 28, 2006 4:42 AM

I kind of wish I could stop automatically copyediting everything I read. (What aspect of yourself would you like to most like to change?===>What aspect of yourself would you most like to change?)

Naz / June 28, 2006 7:27 AM

Hah, corrected. Andrew must have posted that at 3 in the morning!

Mr Anon / June 28, 2006 8:08 AM

My inability to be emtionally involved with a woman. That really sucks.

printdude / June 28, 2006 8:29 AM

I wish I could get up earlier and go to bed earlier, but after years and years of mid-night prowling, it is an awfully hard habit to break.
Coffee helps a lot, though.

karen / June 28, 2006 8:51 AM

this horrible knack i have for procrastination...

stackedbrass / June 28, 2006 9:10 AM

Self-discipline. Every day, I tell myself I'm going to go to yoga after work and I end up out drinking instead. Why, just last night, I was standing in my room, all yoga ready just about to pick up my mat when a friend called. Where did I end up? Estelles!

Tonight,'s all about the yoga (we'll see).

paul / June 28, 2006 9:18 AM

I'm with ya, printdude and karen.

Put those two habits together for awhile and they do create something after awhile - lack of income, which creates motivation, which overcomes them both, for a little while, until I run out of motivation, where the cycle begins again.

Fortunately I'm pretty happy with myself and and anything I might want to change would be something little, that I could actually do - losing 10 lbs. getting out of bed earlier, getting my hair color back etc.

Of course if we're talking magically powers and all that, I'd love to shave off 20 odd years.

spence / June 28, 2006 9:29 AM

I'd like to bitchslap myself about 5-6 years ago when I was choosing my career path.

kristy / June 28, 2006 9:35 AM

my posture. i bought a medicine ball that i am sitting on at work. slouching isn't cool anymore. I am five foot eight inches and people think i'm 5foot5.

Mikey / June 28, 2006 9:37 AM

I wish I could transcend my fear...

Fear keeps me from reaching my true potential in many aspects of my life. Fear of rejection. Fear of failure. Fear of "what will others think?" And even fear of success (i.e. disappointment in discovering that it's not all it's cracked up to be)...

Bill V / June 28, 2006 9:49 AM

Remembering names, eating better and excercising on a more regular basis. That's the first serious answer I've ever posted here!

TaJ / June 28, 2006 9:53 AM

-lack of self discipline when it comes to doing my art projects, yoga (stackedbrass i know your pain)
- being too hard on myself
- fearing being with another after a heartbreak long ago

mike / June 28, 2006 9:58 AM

Fear of flying.

Mo / June 28, 2006 10:19 AM

-I'd like to be a less angry person.
-I'd like to be healthier.

-I'd really, really, really like to be able to make music. I bet I could learn to play an instrument, but it's worthless to me if I can't write my own music, which I can't.

Avril / June 28, 2006 10:32 AM

-be less critical of myself
-accept the fact that I make mistakes and forgive myself for them
-be a little less sensitive (it's a gift and a curse)

Andrew / June 28, 2006 10:44 AM

Heh, yeah, it was pretty late. Thanks for the catch, anon, and thanks for fixing it, Naz.

I'd like to be more self-disciplined: I'm very deadline oriented, but I don't hold myself to deadlines I set myself very well.

Allan / June 28, 2006 10:57 AM

Physically, I would like to have my penis size reduced. I know it is the fantasy of most men to be enormously endowed but it is not all it is cracked up to be. Some of the worst is people assuming you have stuffed your pants with an prize winning cucumber and woman refusing to let it anywhere near an orifice . Growing up, the children, especially the children were so cruel. The boys in the locker room called me "Big Al's Hot Dog Stand" which despite all the hurt and pain this nick name caused me I always though it was rather clever in it's multiple meanings. I have looked into medical options but all the procedures available involve significant risks. If I could just find the right woman maybe my perspective on this would change but the "Size Matters" issue seems to favor the average. Every woman I have gotten close to eventually backs away in fear when the trousers hit the floor.

emyduck / June 28, 2006 11:05 AM

more self control. i don't like to hold back.

amyc / June 28, 2006 11:08 AM

Jeez, where do I start? Most days I hate almost everything about myself. I'm too lazy, too critical of others, too cynical (or too gullible, depending), too introverted, too plagued by the idea that every time I open my mouth I say something stupid.

Maybe what I need to change is the voice in my head that tells me all these things.

mary / June 28, 2006 11:15 AM

i wish i could change how critical i am towards myself and others.
i also agree with spence and wish i could have changed my mind about my "career path" -- though that really falls under the heading of "afraid to fail" which is another character flaw i'd like to change.

Hal / June 28, 2006 11:28 AM

The classic: my weight - to lose about 50 lbs. Vanity aside, I'm at the age were the extra pounds will compound health issues.

Procrastination is the other - particularly an issue with school and papers. I'm tired of working till 4:00am. They turn out pretty damned good, but the stress is unbelievable.

josh / June 28, 2006 12:33 PM

Let's see...more self confidence, more optimistic, socially functional, more self discipline, stop being afraid of life and love, the ability to really trust someone, stop letting my past mistakes cause me so much shame, stop being so hard on myself, stop letting minor setbacks become a representation of my inability to succeed at anything. I'd really just like to break free of all the bullshit that goes on in my head all the time and be able to cut loose and really feel like I'm being myself.

Or maybe I just need to grow the f*** up.

anon redux / June 28, 2006 12:37 PM

I would like to strengthen my commitment to my art--it seems as if I'm always putting things ahead of it (man, job, friends), then I get nowhere and feel empty about it.

On the other hand, I'm very grateful to have those other things on my priority list that make the non-creative side of me feel so full. I really wouldn't change that for anything.

amy / June 28, 2006 12:43 PM

I'd like to have more will-power. As soon as I can't have something it seems like I crave it even more!

Terminal Verbosity / June 28, 2006 1:01 PM

One of each of the above (except Allan).

Sara / June 28, 2006 1:11 PM

I think it's called schadenfreude. Taking pleasure in other people's misfortune. It's a horrible feeling and I keep it well under wraps, but every now and then it surfaces.

I'd also like to be two inches shorter.

fluffy / June 28, 2006 1:26 PM

Wish I wasn't so damn shy

C-Note / June 28, 2006 1:35 PM

I wish I could change the aspect of my character that won't entertain the notion that maybe, just maybe, I have enough money. It's like beating the top score on a pinball machine and I just gotta keep playing, keep stacking up those points... It's like there's no dollar amount that could make me happy, so I just have to go all out until something changes. Anybody know a good hypnotherapist?

Blagg the Axman / June 28, 2006 1:44 PM

I sometimes wish that I could quench my thirst for justice. Sometimes, staring into my campfire late at night, it is difficult to remember a time when I wasn’t questing for justice, or days that were not so darkened by the spectre of evil that now embodies this land. It occurs to me that if I were a different sort of man, a non-axman if you will, I might be able to turn my back on this place and all the sorrow and pain it has held since the Dark Lord Kayne seized control of the kingdom—I might be able to travel to a distant land and start anew, and perhaps one day a smile would again find its way to my cracked, scarred face. But before long my eye falls upon the well-worn handle of my ax, the deep grooves in my shield, and the soles of my boots, worn thin from toil and trudging. And though I am no longer certain that I even know what I am fighting for, I know that the quest itself has completely consumed me.

mike / June 28, 2006 1:56 PM

I have a deviated septum which causes sleep apneia, so I have trouble sleeping through a full night. I've had surgery for it, but it still doesn't work. Some days, I am tired for no reason. I would like to change that.

Otherwise, I pretty much rule.

crush / June 28, 2006 2:05 PM

Part of me wishes I could stop having this crazy crush on Blagg the Axman, but then I think, "Naaaawwww. I love his justice-seekin' ass."

anon / June 28, 2006 2:05 PM

I'd also like to be two inches shorter.

Like Allan?

Emerson Dameron / June 28, 2006 3:44 PM

The nebulous sense of dread I've had since I was 3 or so. I'd like to lose that. Anybody want it?

Otherwise, I'll settle for the last 10 years of my life to do over.

sky / June 28, 2006 4:19 PM

Fear holds me back from so many things, which is kinda ironic because most people that know me think the opposite of me.
I have a fear of not getting into the right grad school so I don't take the GRE. I have a fear of not picking the right profession for me so I get flustered and put it on the back burner. I fear the rejection the most.
I date guys that aren't good enough for me simply because they show interest and then when I realize they aren't right for me I don't have the courage to break it off because I don't want to hurt their feelings and honestly I don't want them to dislike me as a person--and I know it is worse to just drag things on.
I wish I could be more open to a relationship with someone that is right for me but I have such a hard time letting someone into that part of me...I can with male friends, but as soon as it is sexual I close up.

Other than that, I need to exercise more. I hate my big ole boobs but my dreams will come true and they will be coming off, (well brought down to a normal size) in just a few weeks. These 2 giant funbags have consumed me emotional and physically for so long and I hate them.

Leo / June 28, 2006 4:29 PM

I'd like to be graceful. Despite the fact that I have good muscle tone and decent strength, am "heart-healthy", thin, and flexible, there's something that makes me a horrible dancer and bad at most sports.

Vince / June 28, 2006 4:43 PM

I'd like to have a better memory. Way too often, I have friends and family telling me something I said or did, and I have no immediate recollection of it. Poor memory has a detrimental effect on so many aspects of life....and it seems like there is no way to improve that.

Oh, and like Leo, I wish I were not so athletically challenged.

Baldeesh / June 28, 2006 5:11 PM

My ability to fall for guys who can't get emotionally involved. It doesn't happen that often, but it's pretty miserable when it does.

Also, I'd like to stop beating dead horses.

Justin / June 28, 2006 5:53 PM

A few things: A louder voice would help; this I can work on. I'm with Leo on wanting grace. And my admitted internet addiction keeps me from pursuing offline interests. WIth that...

Brandy / June 28, 2006 7:19 PM

I am far, far from perfect - but all things considered I keep my perspective and have a strong sense of self. And I work hard at growing.

But I wish I could literally grow a foot taller. Being 6'2" would be very conveinent for my job.

Leelah / June 28, 2006 7:45 PM

I need a serious dose of patience...

Amy / June 28, 2006 8:16 PM

I wish I could more content and stop always wishing for something better.

d / June 28, 2006 9:10 PM

I wish I wasn't a compulsive overeater.

Appleby / June 28, 2006 9:32 PM

Emerson, have you ever read "The Beast in the Jungle" by Henry James? It's about a man who can't commit to anything because he senses that some terrible, unknown thing is hanging over him and that one day it will spring on him, like a beast in the jungle. So he prevaricates and procrastinates and waits and then . . . he dies. The beast that gets him is his own fear of living. He misses out on his own life.
That story scares the crap out of me, so I guess that tells you what I wish I could change about myself.

Lex / June 28, 2006 10:37 PM

I wish I had more patience with people, wish I could be really happy without a significant other, and wish that I could be late. As much as I try to be nonchalant, I am always the first person to show up for stuff. Dork.

Michael / June 29, 2006 6:16 AM

Christ on the cross-- if I could, I'd be someone else entriely.

slb / June 29, 2006 9:02 AM

i also wish i had patience. i'd like to be less impulsive. i also wish i could be less angry. i'm working on all of those things, and i'm getting better... but i wish it wasn't so hard.

like emerson, i have the dread thing... it has waned as i have aged, but every once in a while it pounces. like, well, a beast in the jungle, i guess...

ahn / June 29, 2006 9:44 AM

i wish i could live more in the moment, not put things off, do the things on the stupid lists i make for myself.

see also, lose fifty pounds. hooray.

LoadZone / June 29, 2006 9:53 AM

I tend to sit back and watch life go by.

By that I mean I generally wait for things/opportunities to fall into my lap.

i.e. I need to improve on self-confidence and be less lazy. I should TRY HARDER for what or whom I want. etc. etc.

I've made a conscious effort to improve this in the last few years, but I still got a long way to go.

Jack / June 29, 2006 11:53 AM

I wish I knew how to quit you.

Josh / June 29, 2006 2:04 PM

- I'd like to stop jumping to conclusions so often, although half the time I'm right.
- I'd like to stop eating so many bags of Spicy Doritos.
- I'd like to stop beating myself up every time I smoke a little pot at the end of the day.
- I'd like to stop categorizing people. But I can't help it, I have a brain that notices patterns.
- I'd like to be more pro-active in situations. I always feel like others are giving me a nod to lead the group, but I'm always worried about stepping on someone's toes.

george / June 29, 2006 2:22 PM

I'd like to stop being such a cocky bastard at times. Man I can really come off like a real dick sometimes. Dammit. I gotta stop thinking that I can teach the world something new.

Felix / June 29, 2006 2:36 PM

I wish I had a role model who could educate me on how to improve at my addiction, going postal against scores of 5-year-olds.

spook / June 29, 2006 3:01 PM

The holes in my hands. Its very difficult for me to eat M & M's, lemon heads, Alexander the Grapes, etc, etc,

april / June 29, 2006 3:08 PM

I think too much and talk/do too little. As a result, I pass up too many opportunities.

Emily / June 29, 2006 3:23 PM

Insecurity. It's been easier to tame with age but still will manifest itself in some sort of ugliness from time to time. Especially if I'm dating someone. It's way too easy to compare myself with others & expect unattainable things from myself.

Shylo / June 29, 2006 3:39 PM

My constant half-assing of virtually everything I do.

Sarah / June 29, 2006 4:27 PM

I want to change my freaking indecision. I think my life would be much easier if I could just make a decision. Even if it's the "wrong one" . Just decide already, okay?

fluffy / June 29, 2006 5:12 PM

I am so stupid. Stupid stupid stupid. Whay am I always fucking up? I dont know what to do.

anon / June 29, 2006 5:20 PM

I'd like to change my ability to say "no" and to let my friends know when they are out of line, so as to avoid being taken advantage of constantly.

anon / June 30, 2006 8:04 AM

Stop sleeping with people who leave comments on by blog.

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